so i have been with my boyfriend for almost 4 years. and its gonna be 4 years in a month, i love him so much. hes my BESTFRIEND<’3. well for the past month …. it really wasnt going good. i sleep over his house every weekend and i love spending time with him. but the thing that drive me nuts is that i feel like hes been treating me like shyt. i feel that hes bringing me down alot and that everytime i try to make something better , it gets worster, jus because he has a anger issue. I feel like i have no point in my self anymore. Everytime i think about it , it makes me go nuts that it makes me think in my head over and over aigan ” im sorry . i jus wanted to ….make you happy. i know im worthless.” The one person that i can count on the most has been being such an asshole. I feel that its not us anymore. He puts everything everything else in front of me and yet he says im his first priority. Today we went out with his family and when we were having a good day. We were in the car going to his cousins house and i asked him “do you trust me?” and he said ” Should i ?” and that made me really feel …. i really dont know how to explain it but it hurt. it gave me the worst feeling. He doesnt see what im going thru. Oh well i guess im jus gonna be the peice of shyt getting kicked around . It just hurts every minute when i jus think about it. And our annivarsary is on the 16th. I dont think were going to do anything on valentines day. I just wish he wasnt like this , it jus doesnt feel right anymore.. But i wonder why hes treating me like that, Anyways i am jus happy that im doing really good in school and that i am going to graduate.
